The Mind of a Genius

   I was sad. I remembered it for the first time. I was lonely, uncared for. I mistook the laughs of many to insults. I have learned a lesson so hard, you might mistake me for a loon. Everyone is alone. Not even sounding right, doesn’t it? Give me, just a time, to understand the pains of being a human and why it won’t go away…

   Sure, most can say that life began through love of two beings, and the conception of life. But how certain can it to be just like that at all? A problem, marriage fails, and separation. Not just a special occassion, this being now the norm. And then what, of the child left behind? Pains, and a lot more…

   Your boyfriend/girlfriend… i must apologize first if i should cause you and your ‘loved one’ any harm… how long should you both last? At least a year? Forever? The answer, quite simply, is as long as you both want to. How far could that be? As i said, as long as you both want to. One argument, all that it takes. This sick, twisted notion that you call love is nothing more than gut feelings of sexual desires for the other being.

   Even more depressing, the isolation of those that people call ‘freaks’ and ‘weirdos’. How can you call every human being unique, when there is someone not belonging in? When everyone strives to become like someone else, now where is uniqueness in that? In their effort to be known, what they don’t realize is that they’re just copying someone else’s image.

  But unlike goths or pessimists, i know why am i like this, and i can manipulate that power of sadness into a weapon of great strength. I know, even if i am bound to be alone, i can protect myself, and prove to the world that being alone is much a burden as being famous. At least, through that, i can grow as a different and very much alike human as everyone else…

    A pessimist sees the glass as half-empty, while an optimist sees it as half-full. Someone may view an object as irritating, while for others, beauty. We believe so, that from the moment we are given birth to, we have differences. We view the world as we see it. But we can also imply, that since we have different visions, we have conflicts.

    But what is a vision, anyway? It is our perception of the world around us. Our beliefs. Our fears. Our view of the persons around us. It is what moulds our mental background, the creator of our imagination.

    But we are influenced, still, by the forces around us. We may follow their examples, fall prey to their lies, but we grow nonetheless. It is this contorted practice, of complying to the earthly culture, that we manage to hinder the growth of our spiritual growth. However we may not like it, being influenced, whether good or bad, destroys the notion of us being ourselves.

    Through the countless visions that the world has, it is impossible to know two different beings and not fight. Heck, the price of uniqueness is divertion. And divertion sometimes lead to jealousy, and eventually, conflict. Now, even our visions seem to hinder themselves. But it isn’t necesarrily meant to be…

    Respect. One of the older visions retracting itself to military and gang values. If we have respect, for everyone, we can at least give conflicts an easier death, suffice to say. The path to peace always starts with respect, and through it, understanding. Even if you don’t like someone, at least respect him/her for what he is; a human.

    For me? My only vision; "I have the respect for every other vision, but if that special something is the cause of pain for anyone, i will see to it that vision must be eradicated…"

—-"I’ve got problems, you’ve got problems, everyone’s got problems…"—-

Isipin natin… naaala-ala nyu pa ba yung speech ni "President" Gloria? Ano kaya sa tingin nyo ang reaksyon ng mga tao non? (Pero syempre alam na natin…) Kung ano kaya… /hmm… i-try kaya natin yung ganito…

"I am NOT sorry… kiss my ass Philippines. Ano ba ang pakelam nyo sa ginawa ko? Uto-uto lang naman kayo eh. You bunch of morons, n****r ass kissers, don’t you know that 80% of your tax money goes into my pocket. Yes dumbkoff, VAT is simply my way of telling you peeps that you are suckers! And, one more thing, bukas, the Philippines is no longer under the jurisdiction of the Republic. I already had sex with President Bush, and starting tomorrow, we are the 51st state of the United States of America!! WA-HA.. WA-HAHA-HA… WA-HA… AHAHAHAHA!!

Grr… wag na nating isipin… back to drawing mode…

" oo nga pala… Full Metal Alchemist = astiiiiiiiiiigggggggg  Melissa na opening song, the BEST!!"

Primarily, when someone asks you what love is, you get all mushy and say, "love is a sweet … love is blind… love is truthful …" No surprise, since it is only natural to normal beings to love and feel being loved. But what if, just maybe, someone is not bound to be loved by anyone?

Incredible as it may seem, love is not all what it looks like. You may hate me for saying this but, for me, as i believe it is, is that, "Love is only a cruel irony for which only the body is taken seriously." If it isn’t like that for you, i’d rather tell you something i found out during my stay here on this earth.

How many times have you realized, that you are looking for something from someone? No, i don’t just mean someone’s overall outlook, or his physical, mental, or spiritual state.  You love someone because you love someone for something.  Always will be, always does. It does seem right in a sense, but once a being is deluded into thinking "nothing can go wrong", he feels that he has no reason for loving her. And that’s where problem starts…

How deep is the love? As shallow as what you have understood it from. Even now, that i seem to fall in love with someone, my mind disperses the thought, because i know better than to succumb to this shallow feeling humans love the most. When we ultimately fall for something because we want to, that is when it is most shallow. A fight? A misunderstanding? Yeah, something as shallow as that can simply destroy what you and your "loved one" has built.

But love is not all that. Despite of what i have said about ‘humanly love’, we can never forget the sacrifice of our Lord for us. That is pure love, no more no less. He died simply because he wants us to be saved. Did that love went to waste? I don’t think so, even though the world does not show it often. So don’t feel bad about me, feeling no love for any human being. At least, you are able to walk your own road, smiling sheepishly and not knowing the horrid truth for ignorance’s sake…

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Mga tolness… simula muna tayo sa mga bagay-bagay sa mundo natin… the one we call the music, the beat, the rhythm. Mga bagay lang na kailangan iclarify at siguro i point out na di nyo pa alam…

Music. Kung iisipin natun, kahit saan meron nito. Kahit na ang katahimikan ay isa ring parte ng musika. Kung hindi niyo pa alam, ang piece na kung tawagin ay "4 minutes and 33 seconds" ay isang composition na walang kahit na anong tunog. Ang composer ay mauupo ng … well… 4 minutes at 33 seconds sa piano at walang gagawin. hehehe… astig.

In english, the beat of the moment, the heart of every memory, is always present. We may not be listening to it, but it sure is playing to us. Yung mga sinasabi nilang happy-go-lucky at mahilig mag contemplate, sila ang mahilig makinig sa tugtog ng buhay. Masyado kasi tayong maraming sinasabi, ngunit wla namang tono. Our words are of no use, because it does not ride with the rhythm of life. Love, fashion, friendship and all the stuff regular human beings crave hinders our listening to the sweet sorrowful melody of life. But when we sit down, listen to the darkness, that’s when we know that the music is playing. Silence… one big beat unending…

If we open our minds and try not to speak of things that are not even useable to others, we might as well not speak at all. For when we do, the beat of our evil intentions undermines the power of life’s music to heal and retrace…

gendou.com for your anime mp3’s online!! piracy is a crime!! all eat sundae!!

Eto po ang unang landing zone… get ready…

Waw! Apat na taon din… katatapos lang ng High School at ngayun "high" na naman ako sa College. Marami na rin akong di naalala sa mga nangyari sa akin nong high school. Wala naman siguro akong naconsider na best friend noong high school days ko.. kaya sa tingin ko nice justice ren ano?

Saya dito sa college. Ganun pa rin man ang trato ng tao sa kin (na parang basura), ayus din naman. Mga kakilala, bago. Siguro wala na ako pakelam sa love life ngayon para maging luko-loko sa mga babae, at ba’t hindi, di naman ako gwapo ^_^!!

Siguro ngayon, eh i popost ko one by one ang mga pumapasok sa ulo ko kapag nag-iisa ako. My mind’s sort of doing this wonderful things… thinking about how rotten the culture of humanity is… love, honor, hate, sadness: all distorted by what one sees as the vision of all. eto na yan, ang unang landing ng Jero Warship…